15 January, 2004
Well well well...
its amazing what happens when you don't call people- actually no its not amazing at all its just plain sad.
Being an accessory in someone's life isn't smart. You only get used when you co-ordinate with the rest of their day or evening.
I have to go to this fancy dress and I'm supposed to dress fancy- not in a constume mind you so there are some bonuses.
This means getting dressed up into skirt and top and heals. I could avoid it all together and say I forgot and be the casually dressed girl there- which can sometimes be a good thing. But..
dressed up on the tram on your own....
charming.
Inside right now is much like the fish when they have been forgotten- as far as food goes- and they act excited everytime they see you up until the sun starts to go down and then they just listlessly drift around and when you come in they barely give you a glance because they assume you're going to keep on forgetting them.
I'm at the assuming stage right now.
It works better than the expectant or the disappointed or anything.
Life's like that you know.
give me the job please I want the job.