08 January, 2004
I've decided NOTHING!
I really can't fucking work any of this shit out you know kidlettes.
Let's give you the bonuses-
B.T loved the photos from the photo shoot- she called me right after she got home to tell me.
Um.. I'm reading a good book at the moment and my stomach is brown?
What else?
Nah that's about it.
Negatives?
I'm hurtin pretty bad right now.
Literally.
Not just that its what was said as well.
From one person I kept hearing, "You KNOW that I'd never judge you and that I love you- but they will- so you have to be more careful what you say around them." Fuck racism, fuck it to death and back again. We should ALL live in fucking glass houses and drive cars fast on gravel roads.
Or something that makes as little sense.
From the other person I heard some oh-so-lovely phrases- mostly referring to me as 'bitch'- ooh lovely- yeah- not.
Along with, "I looked for you- you were not there- where were you?" I thought- fucking hell here we go again this is a fucking Nigel senario all over again.
Remind me to get a brain next time I'm at the supermarket.
That and a sturdy heart to replace this one that's copped such a stupid beating these past few days.
I need to sleep at your house- I don't have my own sleeping bag but I'll improvise.
You look lovely.