02 April, 2004
So D'Stalker news... he called again. Sheesh. The moment you give this man an inch he gets greedy and takes you for the whole here to Cairns and back again fucking mile. ARGH! No inches for him. I'm rather curious that V knows I spoke to him and actually didn't ask when we were interrupted for me to go on about it later. Curious. Anyway, he called again to 'arrange with Alex to return the money.'
I TOLD HIM THAT I'D CALL HIM WHEN I WAS READY TO TALK TO HIM. What does he not GET about that? Doesn't he see that what he is doing is harassment. If he really does have the money he can always come into work, or send someone else and drop it off. That's pretty fucking easy. He could give it to Jeff, he could do a lot of things that don't involve calling me.
We were talking about the whole 'having to take matters further' if he didn't contact me in regards to giving me the money back this morning at Newtown (me and Pol) and she said something about, "Do you really think its worth it?" And I know what she meant but I was suddenly struck with the memory of the night- which was really the worst night- the one before the official worst night- the one that I should have walked away, never spoken to him again, never been friends again- and I thought of what he did that night (you know wanna know trust me) and yeah- its worth it. Its not even revenge- but I was too scared of him and too intimidated by him earlier to be able to wanna get mad at him. I'm mad now. That he's been pranking me still at work- he could have written me a fuckin letter aye? That he thinks he can call after I said to him two nights ago, "I'll call you in a few days when I'm ready."
Arsehole.
He said, "I've really missed you Alex."
DON'T USE MY NAME!
And then later I speak to B and my heart breaks and I think- see SEE Alex you're a fucking tool sometimes. Fucking stupid little bitch of a tool but STILL that guy deserves no more sympathy or pity or forgiveness.
Prick.
And all this made worse by work and the lack of time off because of - yeah well- and the more uncertainty and - that people can do the shitiest things and not give a fuck about the things you gave them and what they owe you-
decency